Pooh and Roo, You Two

You two have so much to learn.
So much you two need to know.
The world awaits your blossom.
We await your awakening.

The Tao of Pooh is you two.
Pooh and Roo wandering through life.
Too unfocused to focus on the world
Around you two you will too see
The world awaits you and you do not
Even see the potential you have.

I have faith in you two as I do have
Faith in myself and your inheritance.
Faith can move mountains.
Mountains must be seen as challenges.
Open your mind, focus away from you two.

Embrace the world we live in so you two
Will grow into amazing men and sons.
You two will better understand me too.

A Dollar for Your Thoughts

I love to photograph you.
You are so beautiful.
You are so patient and so kind.
Every day I admire you.

A dollar for your thoughts
As a penny is never enough.

Fragile

Life is fragile.
Here today, gone tomorrow.
What will my legacy be ?
How will I be remembered ?
Will I be missed ?
What will I become in another life ?

I have felt fragile most of my life.

Not to sound obsessive but what the hell.
Life has been difficult and rewarding at the same time.
Challenges that I have tried to handle head on.
My greatest periods of enlightenment have come
When I have fallen to the bottom.

I have fallen so many times that it is not the fall I fear.

I remember the exact moment that I hit "rock" bottom.
I actually felt relief. The sensation of falling had stopped.
Imagining that I was on my back in a dark cavern staring up
At a faint light, I felt hope not fear. Fragile not destroyed.

Fear can be paralyzing and fear be be motivating.

I knew that I had two choices.
Laying there in fear or get up and start crawling to the light.
I learned so much about myself when I started moving forward.
I continue to move forward, one day at a time.

The Holy See

Living in the Vatican was a surreal experience.
One person to a room yet a room with a view.
Former altar boy working within the Vatican walls.
Current art expert organizing an exhibition at the Vatican.

Tickle You, Tickle Me

I have always loved to tickle you.
To hear you laugh.
To hear you cry, "stop".
But when you tickle me,
I always feel the love returned.

Happy Birthday, Darci

I love to celebrate birthdays.
Next to my birthday, Darci's birthday is a favorite.
October 7th is another special pair of birthdays.

Darci's birthday makes me reflect on how special our love is and continues to be
Being Darci's husband is a marvelous opportunity to love and be loved.
We appreciate each other more than words can say.

We are both Aries and according to the "stars", we should not be compatible.
However, we are more than compatible, we are best friends and partners.
We celebrate our relationship, enjoy life and live with love in our hearts.

Happy Birthday, my beautiful wife, my best friend and my true love.

No Access

No Access. No Entry. No Way.
Personal Space and Boundaries.
I have struggled my entire life
with creating and defining
my sacred boundaries.

No Access without Permission.
No Means No.
Keep out people
who are not worthy.
Insulate and Protect.

I want to teach my children
to respect boundaries as well as
to create their own boundaries.
To thy own self be true.
Make the choice to protect.

Watching Over You

When you had your second BRCA surgery I was scared.
Scared because I cannot ever image my life without you.
Surgery is scary and hospitals are filled with pain as well as hope.
I pray every day but during your surgery, I prayed for hours.
I prayed for your successful surgery and your swift recovery.
I promised God that I would love you every day without hesitation.
Your courage inspires me. Your strength protects me.
Watching over you, I know that I have been blessed.
You are truly, the love of my life.

Wall Gardens

Gardens hanging on the sides of buildings,
How magical and wonderful.
I marvel at the beauty of the gardens
that I have shared with my lovely wife.
I want to travel the world with my wife
experiencing the most beautiful wonders
of the world.

The Family We Know

"We do not choose our family".
However, as adults we choose the family we know.
The family we know are always those who choose to participate.
We love the fabric of our modern family.

Seven Months Ago

Seven months ago, I weighed 45 pounds more than I do now that I have embraced my lap band surgery of 01 August 2011.
Seven months ago, we visited the Griswolds in Beverly Hills and stayed at their new, beautiful home. Now John Griswold is living in a two bedroom apartment in Playa del Rey following Stefanie's request for a divorce.
Seven months ago, Sandro and Lavanga were entertaining Buddhist monks in their home and now Sandro is recovering from chemo/radiation for Stage One Throat Cancer with his new girlfriend.
Seven months ago, Darren and Victoria had their on-going issues and dramas that have escalated to Darren living in an apartment in Arlington Heights.
Seven months ago, Billy and Matt were begging us for a car to our repeated answers of "no" not until your grades both reach a cummulative average of 3.0. Now they share a 2009 Ford Mustang Coupe with cobalt blue paint and dual white racing strips. A mid-life crisis car if mine just a shag machine for teenagers.
Seven months ago, Wendell and Cynthia were our new friends, married with two boys, and suddenly they disclose their 20 year marriage has been more on the rocks than not and they decide to stop paying their mortgage and split.
Seven months ago, I stopped posting to my blog to prepare for Darci's double mastectomy and final BCRA surgery.
Seven months is a very long time.

Now, it is time to move forward in spite of the seven month hiatus ....